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Friday, February 2, 2018

The sun makes me happy🌷🌞

The weather today is amazing. It’s 2:30pm and I’m sitting outside at one of my favorite local restaurants having an iced latte and a snack. I have on a T shirt and short workout pants and am warm and happy! I’m alone and I’m ok with that. I have no plans today so I decided to just relax and spend a few hours outside. When I’m done here I plan on walking on the Iron Horse Trail for a few miles. Yipee 🎉 I know we need the rain but this sun really brightens my day.

I’ve been wanting to talk about a dark subject and being outside and in the sun will make it easier. Drugs are the devil! They have entered my daughters life again and have taken her away from me. They have taken her away from her sons, and from her sister, her partner and probably many others that I don’t know about. She was my caregiver and was living with us, so her absence is felt daily. I’m sad, I miss her. But I know that releasing her, giving her to God and letting her find her way back to recovery is the only way to deal with the pain.

I’m not ashamed to talk about this. I’m not embarrassed. I’m sad and angry that so many people in the world are effected by drug and alcohol addiction. Our world is broken. We don’t have the tools to deal with life (in most cases). We aren’t taught self esteem in grammar school. Or how to deal with abuse, angry parents, addiction, bullying and teasing. I don’t know why she struggles with addiction but I do know she doesn’t want to be an addict. I also realize that she needs to want to get sober more than I want her to. She has to work hard and go to meetings and do the very difficult work that it takes to stay sober. That’s not fun, that’s not easy. But she needs to ‘work it, because she is worth it!’

I know drugs and alcohol and other addictions have also touched many of you. Some of you have probably lost family members and friends due to overdose, suicide or bad choices. I’m not alone in my pain. I do have help with this though. I have a great church, a pastor and friend who prays for me, my daughter and for our family.  I have a huge network of friends who love me and know what’s going on and continue to lift me up and surround me with love. I have a husband who is very upset about the situation but has provided care for me and makes sure I have people around me when he is gone. I have my youngest daughter who is also dealing with losing her sister, but at the same time is here for me and spending as much time near me as she can.

I’m hopeful. I know God has a plan. I know I will see her again some day. I pray that she gets the help she needs to get her life back on track. I will never stop loving her. And I will never give up hope. I miss her but I won’t subject myself to another ‘false start’. When she is sober, when she has completed a program, when she apologizes for her actions, I will be there with arms wide open and love in my heart ❤️ I pray that happens this year but I do not have any expectations for the timing. It’s in God’s hands.

I hope my story helps those of you who are also struggling with this problem in your family. You are not alone! AA and NA and other programs through your church will heal you, release your anger and help you deal with the pain.

Thank you for your support and prayers🙏🏻 I know I when the time is right I will see her again.....

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  2. This is a great write up, I was also a victim, having Alzheimer's disease for many years. My journey and diagnosis with Alzheimer's disease began when I was 58 years old. My medical condition was heart broken. The first thing I did was get myself informed. I was subjected to different medications including Donepezil, galantamine, by my doctors for treatment without the assurance of having a positive improvement. Despite my visit to several doctors my health wasn't getting better. Also I keep thinking there has to be another alternative to address this, using herbal remedy, this information reinforced my original gut feelings that I should not give up. I decided to look for another option to help my condition. I’ve made many lifelong friends when I was looking for a natural cure for my ailment. To say it gets better is an understatement. I find hope in the darkest of days when I saw a testimony of people talking about Dr. Charanjit's herbal product. I started having series of thoughts, thereafter I ordered his product and started using it, to give the Alzheimer's disease an aggressive approach, the symptoms progressively got better.
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